Oct 16 2006

The Precursors and The Preface

Category: Uncategorizeddryvetyme @ 3:17 pm

“I am the man that G-d has created me to be and I deserve everything that G-d has for me.”

I’ve never done this before, especially not at this level, so in many ways, to actually put the figurative “pen to paper” in regards to my present and future is quite a daunting prospect. Oh, I’m a planner – to a fault – but I’ve never truly set out to make them visible to myself or to others. Even when planning to attend seminary, I found it hard to talk about myself in the future tense, because I’m afraid of what that really means – stability, growing up, leaving behind the blissful transience and perpetual floating that I had come to know. I enjoyed being Peter Pan, since I wasn’t beholden to any of the responsibilities that my Dad, former pastors, John Eldridge, and other American Alpha Males told me that I had to take up as an adult. I wasn’t like them, so I chose to eschew anything that remotely looked like they did, no matter what it may have been – jobs, relationships, dressing up, owning a house, or leisure activities – and I enjoyed doing so. Continue reading “The Precursors and The Preface”