May 17 2005

Hardly

Category: Uncategorizeddryvetyme @ 20:26

Think of all the things that we do that we don’t really want to do.

Seriously.

Start thinking.

I’m thinking about them. I’m here at work. I don’t really want to be here, but I haven’t found a way out. So, I think of things that I don’t want to be doing as well as things that I would MUCH rather be doing. I’m nearly to the point that I’m going to bring my physical journal in here at night so I can write, think, ponder, and work on my screen play.
So, start writing. Now.

I’d like to see what people do that they don’t want to do. Maybe this is an exercise is Pauline discipline and accountability or maybe I’m just bored here at work and I’m trying to get my brain working toward something vaguely growth-oriented. Now, I’m not asking you folks to reveal your innermost secrets & sins — I’m simply wanting to get us thinking about all of the things that we do & engage in as we live our lives that we just do NOT want to do.

And, if you’re not me, that’s great, but, when I think about creating such a list, it gets fairly lengthy, fairly quickly. There’s lots that I do that I just don’t want to do. What should I do about that? What should ALL of us do about ALL the things that we don’t want to do, but end up doing anyway?

What do you think?


May 11 2005

Should I even consider it?

Category: Uncategorizeddryvetyme @ 18:06

What is evil? More than that though, do I even deserve the right to name evil that I see? Is it my place to do so? If I name evil (whether evil in a person or a person/place/thing BEING evil), am I guilty of judging? If I name evil that I see, am I attempting to be “god” of my locality, trying to reign in the forces that swirl around me into a corral that I control and can handle?

Why are humans, esp western christians/churchians, so obsessed with naming things anyway? Some would say that it’s just the result of the rationality/scientism of the Enlightenment run amuck in our pop & church cultures. Some would say that we’re supposed to name evil so that we can keep away from it (usually quoting/adapting I Thess 5:22 to meet the needs of their little enclave/ghetto). Some would say that we have no business with naming evil, but they have usually swung to the opposite extreme of the previous example, so willing NOT to judge people/places/things that they embrace anything at face value, without giving the situation even a cursory example.

So what about evil? What is evil? Am I evil? Are you evil? Are humans evil? Is this world/earth upon which we live evil? What IS evil? Seriously now. I don’t have an answer, though I surmise that God does and there are days when I don’t think that he’s telling us all He knows. Paul encourages us to test the Spirit, both ours and that of the person/situation, but I don’t think that there’s a concrete list there of evils (beyond the 7 “deadly” ones, and those are really so general that we don’t pay enough attention to them). Are the people who killed Brent evil? Their actions are evil, yes, but are they? Don’t we all possess good and evil within us at all times? Isn’t there a conflict between good and evil at work in the world at all times? What happens to that guy if he comes to believe in Christ, follow His teachings, and displays the fruit of the spirit in his life? Does he suddenly become “good” as if he’d always been “evil” before?

Historians and Sociologists look at these concepts and refer to it as the “German Question.” What made Germany evil? What made Germans evil? ARE they evil? And if they’re not, where did Hitler come from? We all recognize him as evil, but what made him evil? Was he born that way? And if he wasn’t, when did he become evil? Was it a single event or a series of unfortunate events? Was it his relationship with his mother or his experiences as a corporal in World War I? What makes someone evil?

Yes, I do realize that sin corrupts us — we fall into temptation, we’re constantly experiencing our flesh warring with our spirit, we do what we don’t wanna do, and we don’t do what we know we should do. But does that make us evil? Brent’s killers did evil things, but are they not redeemable? Hasn’t Jesus redeemed them through his death, burial, and resurrection? If they become believers in Jesus and follow in his footsteps, won’t their repentance be a wonderful, God-given event? Will they cease to be evil then? Have they ever been fully/truly evil anyway?

I realize that I’m asking lots of questions and even questioning long-held evangelical/fundamentalist dogma concerning evil, who’s evil, and why they’re evil, but I think these are key questions in the discussion of what C.S. Lewis calls the “Problem of Pain”. Evil and Pain exist in this world, so how do we reconcile that with a loving God, who sent his loving Son to die for us, so that they loving Holy Spirit could give us direction as we live? What is really evil? Who is really evil? And most importantly, how can any one of us really call someone else evil when the tendencies to commit that evil are within many of us (since we’re all humans)? If Hitler, Stalin, Pol Pot, Attila, Ghenghis, American domestic policy concerning Native Americans, Mao, and other killers throughout world history can be considered “evil,” what makes them any different than ME? OR YOU?


May 04 2005

Called Onto the Carpet

Category: Uncategorizeddryvetyme @ 20:23

Back to those Dads and their custody battles from Saturday night….

I rather enjoy the community of friends that I’m building — people I can talk to, people that challenge me, people who accept my faults, people whose faults I accept, people that I can challenge. It’s like having a group of best friends, people that I haven’t had in my life for a long while. I often wonder if I’ve been running from accountability. Maybe I have. I eschewed the influence of my former pastor, mostly because I feared (rightly) that he was trying to turn me into a miniature version of himself. I eschewed the friendship of most of my peers and elder males where I attended church, mostly because they were either status quo type people (within their denomination) or they were miniature versions of the pastor (who was a nominally progressive person within their denomination.

On the other hand, I haven’t been challenged to be honest with anyone because that person hasn’t been there in my life. The religious system from which I ejected myself (or God led me out of) wasn’t prone to creating true disciples — just copycats of what looked good and was appropriate for their church culture. I had an older man who assisted with the campus Bible study of which I was a part in college who really helped me a lot, in terms of thinking & living Christ each day, but I left that college after my sophomore year and was never invited into discipleship, at least not real discipleship in the growth sense.

How does one become accountable? To their friends? Yes. To those that they serve? Yes. To those who serve them? Yes. But where do those structures come from? Am I calling out for structure or am I just asking for some guidance from someone who might just know more than I do? Or maybe I’m just on the lookout for someone to walk along side me as I try to figure this Christian life out. Or someone to help me to figure out how to actually walk in the footsteps of Jesus — walking as He walked, living as He lived, helping others as He helped, speaking out as He did, loving as He did. Is that too much to ask? Or am I looking for someone who doesn’t exist?


May 03 2005

Art and Craft

Category: Uncategorizeddryvetyme @ 20:13

Sometimes, I wonder what I’m doing here at this job of mine. It’s enjoyable, yet very dead-end. I can’t ever see my boss promoting me, giving me more responsibility, or even giving me a living wage (which I think I would have earned after almost 6 years of faithful service). Conversely, I wonder if God keeps waiting for me to get off my butt and actually do something.

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” — Phil 4:13

So, why don’t I do all things (or even something) with Christ’s strength in me? Seriously here. Why don’t I? I think that keep waiting for God to come down and say, “DO THIS!” Well, he could do that, but I feel that so often I wait on Him and He’s waiting on me. Yeah, that’s right — God is waiting on me. Why? Probably because I’m lazy, weak, and fearful. Why? Probably because I don’t trust myself and I’m too practical sometimes to actually live in/with faith. And that’s really sad on many levels — emotionally, spiritually, theologically, not to mention just sad that I have so much to offer an employer (or the world around me with my talents) and I can’t bring myself to do anything.
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May 01 2005

News or the crap that passes for the news

Category: Uncategorizeddryvetyme @ 00:28

So there’s this new story out now on news stations, both television stations and radio commentators.. This lady “kidnapped” herself because she got cold feet before her wedding. Seriously. I’m not making this up. I wish I was, but I’m not. This is the crap that passes for news these days.

Scott & Laci Peterson.
Terry Schiavo
Elizabeth Smart.
JonBenet Ramsey.
Michael Jackson.

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